Sometimes, there are moments in your life and you look up, and you are just amazed at how fucking surreal you are in right that very moment. My (sur)reality hit last night on the plane flight to San Jose. I'd been travelling since 5am that morning, 6am flight to Atlanta, then a flight to Minneapolis back home. I get home and basically veg on the couch all afternoon before my next flight at 5.15pm to San Jose. We were about 2.5 hours into a 4 hour flight, and I'd just finished reading the novel I'd picked up at the airport on the way to the gate. Upon opening the magazine, I glance left, and there is what I assume was a college professor making slides for a class. Slides on advanced quantum physics...because I just had to ask. She also only spoke French and Japanese. No English. We spoke in Japanese, because my French is worthless. To my right, was a man who insured hospitals against insurance companies who won't pay for patient claims... Hospitals need insurance to cover their bases for insurance companies who won't pay for "insured" patients. And then I looked up at the curtain barrier between the first class and everybody else cabins, and hear "Dance Dance" from Fall Out Boy echoing in from the back of the cabin.
I just had to laugh. It was absurd. But when I got to my hotel last night, after I realized I left all my toiletries at the house in Minneapolis and didn't in so much even have a comb or dab of lip gloss with me, I just had to think...get it out.
I guess my point is to say that it's important to never let things, the little things, the things that people dwell on for no real reason, the things that can shorten a life...never let these things add up to the point where you may crack. I cracked a little bit last night while taking a much needed shower. But it felt great.
I'm going to start writing, a few pages a day at first, and we will see where it goes. No offense to the dedicated blog readers here, but this is just waste and doesn't mean anything much. I've decided on a direction for part of my life...look forward to something to come in a year or so and see what comes of it.